a matter of days

[notesinblue]

i'm watching Lost in another tiny window. my interest has somewhat waned, but i don't think it's the fault of the show. i feel somewhat discontent. i think it's because my vacation is nearly over and i haven't done a damn thing. i still have plenty i'd like to do, but time is short. worse, court is creeping closer and i have such a sick feeling in my stomach everytime i think about it, it's unreal. i want to be done, but i no longer believe this will be the end. there will be more. sometimes i'm afraid it will never be done, that i will be trapped in this cycle of hell forever. of course i know it's not true. one day it will be over. i just wish i knew that day was going to be soon.

lord am i tired of writing that over and over again. the same shit, just a different day. if only there was something i could do about it. i suppose i could try to focus on something else, like all those things i want to do that i mentioned. maybe i could write a list. hmm. okay. let's try it. who knows, maybe it will invigorate me. i could use some inspiration right about now.

finish watching Lost
take down X-mas decorations
cook up a story for monday
start the travel journal
edit
finish reading fortune
happiness scrapbook
photoblog (ongoing)
register
clean and decorate the loft
play a game (Shadow Hearts, ongoing)
mix two/three supernatural playlists
burn disks for friends
get things ready for next semester
call dentist

Comments

[dreamaster.livejournal.com]

Not that this will be of any help, but try taking your mind off of everything by doing something you truly enjoy. If writing is something you enjoy, do it. If you feel like taking pictures of the world around you, do it. Sometimes that little distraction is all that is needed to make things finally go in your favor.

[notesinblue.livejournal.com]

believe it or not, that did help. tremendously. not just the words of wisdom, but also hearing them from another living being. too often i feel isolated. so thank you. i'm off to go distract myself. :)