shell

[notesinblue]

i've been through the demise of a ten year marriage, and i can honestly say that i've never felt as hollow and dead inside as i do now. it never occurred to me that when i tore my heart out, and put it on the table, that the absence of that spark would leave me an empty shell. i'm not suicidal. that would imply there was something left to end. i am, quite simply, already completely dead. i wonder if anyone will even notice.